I’ve been wanting to post about this since Saturday but wanted to wait until the Human Rights Campaign uploaded the official video. At long last, they have.

Over the weekend, I attended the HRC Dinner in Seattle. I agreed to going with Brian weeks ago without knowing who the guest speaker on hand would be. As luck would have it, Wentworth Miller was the esteemed speaker. How lucky was I? I literally found this out just minutes prior to heading into the ballroom. No joke. I was that oblivious.

Given the fact Miller recently officially came out just weeks ago, being present at his first official speaking engagement was an honor. Plus, I’ve had a huge crush on him since his Prison Break days. Naturally, I was excited ;) During his moving speech, he talked about struggling with his sexuality, contemplating suicide and declining his invitation to the St. Petersburg Film Festival. Watch his entire speech below.

“Speaking the right way, standing the right way, holding your wrist the right way. Every day was a test and there were a thousand ways to fail. A thousand ways to betray yourself. To not live up to someone else’s standard of what was acceptable, what was normal. And when you failed the test, which was guaranteed, there was a price to pay. … Like many of you, I paid that price.

The first time that I tried to kill myself, I was 15. I waited until my family went away for the weekend and I was alone in the house and I swallowed a bottle of pills. … When someone asked me if that was a cry for help, I said no, because I told no one. You only cry for help if there’s help to cry for. I wanted out.”

Naturally, I had to track him down for a picture. I don’t normally get star struck but I was in this occasion. Also, I was a little tongue-tied which never happens unless I’m required to speak in front of an audience. Public speaking is not my strongest asset to say the least.

I also wanted to share a picture of Brian and myself with a few of my friends at the HRC gala. This was my second year attending, and once again had a fantastic time. Even more so than last year, in part to Miller being there ;)