Behind The Cast: Week One – 209.4 | 30.1% | 28.4


Tuesday, January 26th 2010
I had my first breakdown of this new project of mine. So my friend Mia walks into the kitchen, and tells me that my roomate Kyle said I was eating bacon when I wasn’t supposed to. Which, for the record, was a complete lie. So I got a bit annoyed. Then I get a message from another friend saying a little birdie told me you ate bacon…and I snapped. Oh my god I snapped to hard and I don’t know why? Bacon shouldn’t be making me upset right? I mean, it’s the candy of meat!

I think the whole reason I was getting upset with it was because it was like I was getting in trouble with the principal or whatever, I was guilty until I proved myself to be innocent. The fucked up thing was that I’ve ACTUALLLY been doing somewhat OK. I’ve actually been getting up super early to go for a walk/run (I almost am running half of it now…that’s a big deal for me) around the lagoon. I’ve been trying to stay away from candy, and junk food, and bacon when I’m not allowed to eat it…so why did I snap?

Then, as soon as that was done, ANOTHER person sent me a message saying “So I hear you’re on a diet!” and I almost freaked…until I realised I posted last week that I was on a diet. Nice one Tommy.

Wednesday, January 27th, 2010
214.4 pounds. Going in the right direction. I keep hearing it’s all about diet and I get that, so I’m trying as hard as I can to not eat the stuff I usually eat, but god I am hungry all the time. I’m sure I’m getting hungrier and hungrier because my physical activity has increased, but how the fuck can you live on leaves? A salad is the most unfilling thing ever, and vegetables or a potobello are not good substitues for a steak or a burger. I would KILL for a burger right now, with bacon, and cheese.

Friday, January 29th, 2010, 10:00am
Today was the first day this week that I slept in. I didn’t wake up at 730 to go for a run because I have a walk thorugh at SNFW at 11. My roomate got a membership and now they are calling me non stop to go and and have 3 free workouts and 1 free trainer sesh. Funny thing, sleeping in and being lazy SO MUCH EASIER than getting up and getting active. Falling back into my old way is very very tempting, and is very very easy to do. Luckily I always keep my appointments so I gotta go see this peppy australian chick. I might kill her, fair warning.

12:00pm – OK so I got back from SNFW, and she weighed me and did that whole body testing thing. Good news and bad news. Good news is my bathroom scale was probably off because the weight she gave me is less than what bathroom scale gave me. Unless I lost another 5 pounds since Wednesday which I find hard to believe.

Bad news is my bodyt fat % and BMI is up there…I’m laying it down on the line.

Weight 209.4lbs
Fat % 30.1% (WAHHH WAHHH)
Fat to lose – 26.4 lbs

Let’s put it into perpective. My fat % should be between 8%(haha YEAH RIGHT) and 20%.
My BMI (Bodymass Index) should for normal weight be between 18.5 – 24.9. Above that is overweight.

AND AS PROMISED! HERE ARE MY HONEST PHOTOS! NO SUCKING IN NO PHOTOSHOP! TURN BACK RIGHT NOW IF YOU SCURRRRED! I swore I would never take in the mirror bathroom pictures as long as I live so I’m breaking a serious cardinal rule of mine.


  • Allan

    I loved this post for so many reasons – first and most importantly because you’re a little bit my hero for being brave enough to share this story with the gay world! I’m so stoked for you to achieve your goals and I’m pretty sure the pressure of posting this journey online will really help you along. You’re awesome! Seriously!

    Second – I think to myself every day as I look at the Lean Cuisine that I’m eating or the salad that I’m making, “why am I doing this to myself? How do people survive on this shit? I don’t even like salad!” I also most frequently want to eat a burger and fries. I guess you just get used to depriving yourself of that stuff in the quest to look like a gay supermodel. It’s been almost a year of this diet (now I like to call it a lifestyle…it helps me lie to myself) and I feel like fast food cravings will never go away. But if I can live on salad then you can too!

    Best wishes with the next week! You can do it. There’s now 10 000 gays routing for you! 🙂 🙂 🙂

  • Jared

    No one said salads had to be gross, or that you can’t eat burger or fries. If you take the time to learn how to cook, you can make anything you want to eat taste good and be more health conscious. Turkey burgers are amazing, and home made baked fries are always WAY better for you than anything bought outside the house.

  • I heart tommy d.
    ps. seeing you last night rocked my world.

    good luck mr! I love that the world watchin’ ya is PRETTY strong motivation to keep this going haha.

  • bruin

    so proud of you. it’s so hard i know.
    a good tip is if you are hungry then sleep it off. maybe eat a banana for dinner and just sleep the pain off. or go do something such as calling a good friend, like Adam for example, and vent, then sleep it off. keep it up T!

    also remember that you are also losing weight to be healthy! yay! think of that heart attack that you wont get. and all the hot boys that youre going to get. think all of the hot boys baby. go go go

  • Justin Fox

    Keep up the good work buddy!

  • Jared

    err i wouldnt agree with bruin in forcing yourself to sleep and putting yourself into a catatonic state just to ignore hunger. The best thing to do if you’re hungry when it’s not meal time yet is to drink water. Water itself actually helps curve appetite, it’s good for you, and is essential in helping with weight loss/gain.

  • David Everhart

    Keep it up! 🙂

    Btw. You have a great frame to build upon. So no worries. 🙂